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is a chance
I could pass unnoticed,
Evening shades are growing darker over me.
There is a chance
That no one should see me
As I'm despaired looking for
Me in the dark.'

People can be cruel, and well did she know
They would never let her be.
Those suspicious looks, and wide open eyes
With terror.
She swiftly paced the streets at night and
Felt almost like she felt before,
But underneath the cloth, the lines would crawl
To surface unwanted.

Dawn approaching, she quickened up to
Prison-home-sweet home.

'There is a chance
I could pass unnoticed,
Evening shades are growing darker over me.
There is a chance
That no one should see me
As I'm despaired looking for
Me in the dark.'

'So many things beyond my grasp -
I'll never feel again the envious looks in women's eyes,
Smiles on children's faces when I smile'


2. The Pun


Tracing pattern that's burnt in my head
Sailing through veins that twist in my flesh
I remember I have always been pushed around
There's a line none of us would allow to trespass

She was there to annihilate all the pain
Saw it plain as I ripped through milky flesh
Strange it seemed why she wouldn't comply
Apprehension?s so hard to defy

In an instant it showed she was scars just like me
In an instant it showed she was scars:

Wish I hadn't been deaf and dumb to the world
Never noticed a blast, heard a whisper a shot
Sometimes felt like a mocking gift from the God
It seems I only knew I existed when hurt

In an instant it showed she was scars just like me
In an instant it showed she was scars...


3. Passing Sears


I'll raise the blade into a heart
I have found a way to make you mine

Late afternoon, she steps out of the bright-lit road
It's now or never, I haven't seen her alone for so long,
For so long ...

You
Enchanted me, conquered me
You, it's all for you
These lines I carve run warm -
A monument of love on you

Let me shape you
Let me hold ...

I'll raise the blade into a heart
I have found a way to make you mine

The path they will trace -
The scars can never mend
Through blood you've spilled I'll display
A masterpiece of love, of love


4. Train Back Home


I never thought that night would change my life so entirely -
An evening at an old friend's house, a glass of wine...
I was supposed to stay 'till eight, but then again I thought
I'll take another train back home
I'll take another train back home

The time has come for me to go, though they insisted:
"Stay for the night," they said, "streets look so empty tonight."
I'll take another train back home
I'll take another train back home
Take another train

The second I opened the door is still coming back to me every night;
I wish I could take a halt and turn back time.

There on the doorsteps I looked at the stars -
Twinkling pranksters spun my time -
I took a deep breath and thought: "Life's beautiful".

Somewhere in the night
That train's still rolling...

Somewhere in the night
My train's still running...


5. The Hunt Is On


Turn away on my creation - I guess I should have known
Not one to comprehend it.
The two of us - me and my love,
We make a perfect pair
An open wound united.

Hold on tight,
Hold on tight...
"How can she be so cruel and flinch away from my caress?"

The noose gets tighter, dogs have caught the scent.
We have no time to spare, we've got to shake them off now.
I've seen my face in the news tonight.
They make a beast of me,
A bunch of brainless fools.

Just hold on tight
'Cause all I ever need is but the end.
Just have faith in me, we can't fail now -
All I ever need is but the end.

Another town, we're moving fast but Still they are on the track,
Starting to lose my head now.

The babble's on, over and over again
Called it a "ghastly deed" -
They just can't understand we

Hold on tight
'Cause all I ever need is but the end.
They can never build a wall between us
'Cause all I ever need is but the end...


6. Away


"Away," she says, "out of this place
Everything's better than here and now",
Tired of endlessly trying to prove
That she could cope with what gets her down.

Each day she takes a look, peers out through the wall
And dreams of outer space, whispering
"I don't want to be here anymore"
And the fields of green disappear, her eyes shut.

Somewhere, somewhere
There's a secret garden where they won't find us
Somewhere, somewhere
There's a secret garden where we belong

I understand, I feel this too,
And sometimes I want out, but prowl up this river somehow
Try to face the fear under your skin
Of how long can you fight,
Knowing that all you get is the sense of losing?

She runs, she runs, she runs ...


7. Look At Me Now


A look at my face as you pass me by
Won't give you a hint who confronts you -

"Love, love, nobody wants you
Love, love, nobody wants your love."

Once, twice, and again - let the bleeding begin
Once, twice, and again...

It seemed I found, as she was passing by,
The one to sooth the pain.
With a careful look, she was wading through
Puddles on a rainy day.
She turned around and sent a smile -
A sight for my sore eyes.
I was certain then she would love me soon,
One day,
One day we'd meet again.

And she'll make love to me,
Make love to a monster,
Loving me
Wipe away old witch's bane.
She'd constantly repeat
I'd ruined her whole life,
Am I the one to blame?
I never asked to be...

Lord, what have they done to me?
Lord, what have I become?

Once, twice, and again...

Lord, what have they done to me?
Oh Lord, what have I become?


8. Time Must Have A Stop


There's no other way that all this would end,
For me, here and now, time must have a stop
At last...
Knowing he's at large somewhere,
Waiting 'till my foot slips so he could get me
One day, one day.

New born, wake me -
There's a dream recurring in my head,
New born, wake me -
With a chance to start over again.

It's the place out of sight,
But I can see it before me:
It hurts
Again and again and again...

"Come now, I shall mold you,
In the likeness and image
Of me."

New born, wake me -
There's a dream recurring in my head,
New born, wake me -
With a chance to start over again.

New born, wake me -
There's a dream that's recurring in my head,
New born, wake me -
With a chance to start over again.

There's no other way that all this would end,
For me, here and now, time must have a stop
At last...

Going outside seems a test of strength,
Everywhere I can sense his scent.
He moves now and then behind every shadow.
Every face is his face, there's a whisper again...

"Pain - we're only here through pain,
Through pain, through pain."

The memory of touch brings shudder,
The scars awake - I relive it all again,
All again.

There's no peace for me 'till my days
End, no hand caressed the paths that never mend,
Never mend...

Pain - we're only here through pain,
Through pain, through pain.